Still serving…

Where do I go? To find myself. To lose myself. To surrender. To find strength for the battle. Where else can I go but to The Lord?

My ways are not enough. They lack in every area. I am precisely imperfect. My abilities will fail…they will falter and crumble. I am weak and afraid. I can not rely on my courage. I am but a handful of dust so easily scattered and lost on the winds of change.

However, yes, however, my Savior is my strength. He is my compass, my defender. My champion. He searches for me and keeps me in his care. He lifts me high above the danger and carries my feeble frame.

I surrender to His might. I surrender to His very name at which even the powers of darkness run from the slightest utterance. Jesus.

I will serve Him night and day for all the days of my life. I will sing His praises and tell of His mercies.

My Lord, my God may your voice be ever present in my soul, guiding me and leading me on my way home to you.


Empty Me…

“Be ye therefore followers of God, as dear children; And walk in love, as Christ also hath loved us, and hath given himself for us an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet smelling savour.”        

Ephesians 5: 1-2

I want to blindly following Jesus.  Trusting in Him as He leads me to all the places that are good for me.  Places that will teach me things and show me things that are Godly and fruitful.  I try to imagine myself as a little child who follows their parent around the house…constantly tugging on shirt tails and asking questions.  I  want to be that little child that Jesus smiles down upon and gently corrects when I’ve done something wrong.

 I want to curl up in His arms and fall fast asleep knowing that I am safe and protected.  Yes.  I want to be that child who is afraid of falling out of grace and approval.
I want to be that little, innocent child who smiles at everyone and doesn’t know how to judge others for the clothes they wear, their hairstyle, their tattoos and piercings.  I want to wave at passers by regardless of  the car they drive or the jewelry they wear.
I want to love everyone!  Just as Jesus loves everyone.  I strive for that!!
Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: 
And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
 I don’t want to understand how to judge others.  I want to be free of that.  I want that part of me to vanish and never return.  Oh, I want to be wise and not cast my pearls before swine.  But, Lord, help me not to be so quick to sum a person up based on outward appearance.


This was on my mind today and I wanted to share it with everyone.  It is one of my favorite Psalms.  How amazing it is to come to the understanding that our God knows every detail about us.  He hand crafted us and made us perfect.  It is hard to wrap my mind around such knowledge!!

I disapprove of myself a lot about being overweight, having a perfectly round face, not being as tall as I would like to be and having poker straight hair!!  Actually, that list could be miles longer.  However, I know that I need to start praising Jesus for all those things instead of complaining.  How can I possibly tell God that I don’t like his design plan?  Umm….not gonna do it!  I am a one-of-a-kind constructed by God himself!  We all are!  How could I possibly complain?  I need to surrender to my Father and let him banish those ugly, worldly scrutinies.
I pray that He will search me and fill me with so much love that there is no room for anything negative.  That is one reason I love this Psalm.  Whether you have read it a thousand times or this is the first time…it will uplift you.
Have a blessed day!  Remember, when you are feeling negative about yourself…you are a child of God.  Perfectly and purposefully created!!  That should make you feel unstoppable!!  So, go let your light shine…there is not another like it in all the world…

Psalm 139

O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.
Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it. Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!  If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee. Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men. For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.
 Do not I hate them, O Lord, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee? I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies. Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:  And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.